I've Come to Realize

I did this one a year ago and loved it, so I thought I would update :)

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size ...is huge, tremendous, but seems to make my baby and my husband happy.

2. I've come to realize that my job...does not pay what I am worth, but I am a lucky girl to be able to stay at home and just be a Mommy. I just laugh when people say "Are you just a Mom?" I would like to say "You are more than welcome to take my place for a day and get it all done proficiently without going insane." But I LOVE IT!!!

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...2 things can happen. #1. I usually turn up the music and jam out. Or #2. If we are heading somewhere for more than a few miles, I put a movie in that all the kids can agree on, so there will be peace while driving on a long trip. I seriously don't know how our parents took us anywhere with a DVD player in the car. I feel sorry for them and all the fighting they had to put up with.

4. I've come to realize that I need....Way to much coffee in the mornings, hugs from my babies, a conservation with my husband, a moment to meditate, and to be able to make a difference in some one's life. Whether that means lending an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on. And probably one of the biggest right now, is that I NEED to get healthy. Live a healthy life style. Not sure when or where that is going to take place, but I know it is desperately needed in my life.

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...A lot a respect for several people I once adored, the ability to put my leg over my head and my Nana's pendant.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...People jump to conclusions without sufficient research, when I feel like my kids can't hear me unless I am screaming and I go to bed at night with a clean house and wake up to a mess.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...I really don't drink very often, but the few times I have been drunk, I felt, pukey, wobbly and out of control.

8. I've come to realize that money...Is something that makes the world go around and something that people are frequently judged for. I will never understand the nastiness that money causes, but it's needed to survive.

9. I've come to realize that people...Have their own beliefs religiously and politically and I will never change their minds, just like they will never change mine.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always ...Strive to improve my self as a wife, Mommy, sister, friend and person, be search for the real things in life and miss having a Mom.

11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s)...All brothers :) I love them all so much. It amazes me that we are all completely different people in someways and so alike in others.

12. I've come to realize that my mom...Left my life way to soon and has left an empty hole I feel like I'm always trying to fill.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone... Is something I am far to attached to. But I am so not afraid to admit that.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...How badly I need to go grocery shopping. I have no idea what I am going to feed the kids until I ge to the store.

15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...I was already frustrated because it takes me way to long to unwind and go to sleep.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...About 100 different things. Why the kids are fighting, if Todd's diet is going ok for him, cleaning my sty yet again, and...............................to many things to list.

17. I've come to realize that my dad...Meant more to me that I admitted when he was alive. I loved him so much and wish I would've made a more valient effort to be with him more.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...Oooooo.....I spend WAY to much time on Facebook. It's my social life :)

19. I've come to realize that today...I need to get organized, fly with the Flylady, kiss my babies and go get some damn groceries.

20. I've come to realize that tonight...I will remain calm and be an efficient Mommy while getting all my Mommy duties done.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow...Will be Monday :)

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...Figure out the emotional eating bullshit, be a better Mommy and wife and make a difference in the world.

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this is...This is a dumb ass thing to put in any questionnaire.

24. I've come to realize that life...Is a constant experience in learning and growing.

25. I've come to realize that this weekend... Was Fun :) I love being home with my babies.

26. I've come to realize that marriage...Is the most wonderful, frustrating, exhilarating, roller coaster ride of anything I've ever experienced. I never thought I would ever feel so safe with and yet so confused by someone in my entire life. We both continue to grow and learn about each other everyday. And seem to keep liking each other in the mean time :)

27. I've come to realize that my (close) friends...Keep me sane. They all bring a vital part into my life. And even though I feel like I have only one bestest friend, I feel like I have a handful of best friends that all allow me to be me and love and support me no matter what new challenge is going on in my life.

28. I've come to realize that this year...has been a growing experience, filled with ups and downs, but it has had more ups than downs.

29. I've come to realize that my ex's....Were great parts in my past, but not what I needed in my future. They all taught me something about myself and I am a better person because they were there at one moment, but I am SOOOOOO grateful that Todd is the man I was lucky enough to marry.

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...Hmmmm..... there are so many things that I should be doing.

31. I've come to realize that I love...Soooo many things. My beautiful family, my brothers, my friends, my town, my house to be clean, the smell of a newborn, the way my husband holds me, my kids' laughter, being in my nightgown, texting, coffee, lunch with my girlfriends, music, hosting a party and reading.

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...Religion, people who don't like chocolate and intolerance.

33. I've come to realize my past...Has made me who I am. There are things I would love to change, but you can only move forward and learn from the things that would like to have changed.

34. I've come to realize that parties...Are a fabulous, when filled with friends and family :)

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified...Of loosing my loved ones, not being a good enough example to my kids, mornings with no coffee and confrontation.

Lil's Hair Do :)

 Todd and I made a choice when Spencer started school to keep all of our kids home a year and send them to Kindergarten when they turn 6 instead of when they are 5. It's mostly because they all have summer birthdays, so they would be really young and would be competing with kids a lot older than they are. Plus, we'll get to keep them home another year when they are older. One more year of driving, having a job and just learning to be responsible :)
 (We hope anyway :) Soooo.... This is Lily's last year of preschool. This year, she is chillin' with Miss Holly and Miss Liz at Wonderland Preschool and sees Mr. Drew and Mr. David along with all the other teachers at the Child Development Center. She was so excited to go to school this year. She seems to have matured massively over a years time. She's so smart, figures things out all by her big girl self and just seems to handle herself very well.
 MOST of the time.(There is still plenty of DRAMA MAMA floating around the Bates home:) This year she has taken an active interest in what she is wearing and how her hair is done. She tells me almost everyday whether she wants piggy tails, a pony tail, or just long like a Princess. The day this picture was taken she was so excited about how her hair looked, although I'm not sure why, we do it like this a lot. But she was excited. So we took some pictures and she was posing, of course. She was so funny about it. Anyway, we are going to try really hard to enjoy this year. Hopefully it won't go by to fast. I think seeing her going through those big doors to the school might just break my heart. But she will go with a big smile on her face, ready to learn and be a big girl, all the while knowing she's a beautiful, smart girl with fabulous hair :)

Favorite Foods

I have found in my 11 years of being a Mommy that there are only a few items I cook, that my whole family will all agree are yummy. Adam and Lily complain frequently about what we are having for dinner and because of that they often refuse to eat dinner. Which is all fine and well, but I am not a short order cook, so whatever is on the table... is dinner.....that's IT. There will not be another item fixed. Poor starving babies of mine. Anyway, Spencer is by far my best, least picky eater closely followed by Sara. Shrimp Fettuccine is one dinner item all of us love. And Sara REALLY loves it. I think she had 3 helpings. At one point she had huge handfuls of it, eating it as fast as she could. It was so cute. YAY for noodles and shrimp :)

 

 

 

 

Princess Peanut Butter

I snapped these pictures today. Sara got into the peanut butter all by her big girl self and grabbed a spoon. The next thing I knew, she was happily scooping up big spoonfuls of peanut butter and eating them just like her Daddy's does. I think this was a pretty proud moment for Todd :)